Today felt so right. Though I was sick and wasn’t feeling 100% myself, you being next to me made everything way better. I just realized that I never did fall asleep whenever I was with you. I’d close my eyes, but I never did go into a deep sleep like I did today.. while being in your arms. I loved it. We’d fall asleep together on skype many times, but that’s different. When I woke up from my nap, you were still holding me. And this is true, there is nothing better than waking up next to the person you love dearly <3

I love how we balance each other out and bring out this other side of ourselves we never thought we had. That’s exactly how a relationship is suppose to work. And that’s exactly how our relationship works.

You bring out this part of me I never thought no one could get out of me. And though it’s a working progress, you still haven’t left.

I’m loving how good things are getting and how much better things will fall into place because we’re both working together. I’ll admit though, it wasn’t easy in the beginning. A number of times, I thought “that was it”.. I thought you were just going to be another stranger I had once shared memories with. But if you think about it, nothing worth it ever comes easy. Everything that is ever worth it to a person is that way because they worked for it. And I get it. I see it. I see that you have some guilt for not trying as hard as you are now. I totally understand how much time and effort you’re giving me to make up for times that were wasted in the past. Let me say this to you now. I forgive you and I’m over the past because I’m loving the present and bond that we share now. So let’s just keep up with this and bulid our future together.

I love how I can look into your eyes and say “I love you” with such confidence. I know for a fact you’re the one for me.

Dang, I haven’t been posting any pictures for my 366. I have failed :( Well, there’s always next year to try it all over again. Unless I start the day before my birthday (god permitts).

So what have I been up too? Well, it’s not a whole not. I’m still jobless. Aside from that, I see my boyfriend a whole lot & I love it very much ^_^

It’s summer. Trying to lose weight :p

But I have other goals. Learn new words so my dang boyfriend can stop teasing me about my vocabulary -____- I wanna learn new things this summer.

I have sucha hard working boyfriend! So committed yet stubborn when it comes to not wanting anyones help. But I’m happy that I can comfort him now and be the one he comes to when he needs someone to talk to. I’m happy I’m the one that can calm him down and make him feel better. Make him laugh and smile <3

Hmm. Idk what else to type about right now, at the moment. SOO yeah, bye!

How I Perceive Myself

In the “Who I Think I Am” worksheet, I chose the categories: Animals and Transportation. In the category of Animals, I chose the bear to describe me because bears are known for being gentle and humble creatures when they are not being bothered. I see myself as a caring person to others, but if they push my buttons I can be very defensive. I picked the hyena for what I think others think of me because of the laughing sound they make. Many people know me as a very smiley and laughable person. Lastly, the ideal animal I want to be seen as is the turtle. A turtles shell is really heavy, which makes them very strong creatures. The shell of a turtle also protects them from danger. I wish I was a stronger person who was able to block at the negatives that I’m faced with. In the category of Transportation, I chose the van to best describe me because a van is big enough to fit many people. I believe that I have a big heart that has enough space for everyone. I picked the kiddy car for what I think others think of me because these types of cars are small and not taken seriously. I believe that because of my height, many don’t take me serious and that I can’t deliver my duties as a type of transportation. Lastly, the ideal transportation I want to be seen as is the skateboard. In order to ride a skateboard, you need balance. I wish I had the mentality to focus on one destination and balance everything while rolling.

In the “Who I’d Like To Be” worksheet, I rated intelligent first, physically attractive second and wealthy last. Education is most important to me because my grandpa once told me that in order to back yourself up in life; you need education under your belt. Being physically attractive is second to me because having confidence is healthy. Wealthy was last because money doesn’t bring happiness. In another, I rated respected first, loved second, and feared last. Respected is most important to me because I don’t like being pushed around by people. Being loved is second because love is happiness and everyone needs love to function. Feared was last because I don’t see myself as mean and bossy person.

In the “How Satisfied I am With Me” worksheet, my goals are very satisfied because I’m no longer uncertain about what I want for my future. I know what I want and how to achieve my goals. My intelligence was neither satisfied nor dissatisfied because I see myself with an average education. My body is very dissatisfied because I am not happy with the way I look. Because of that, I’m trying to fix that about myself by working out and eating healthy.

With the last worksheet, I find myself an extremely friendly person because I enjoy making friends. Though I like making new friends, my social skills are neutral because I am a shy person who doesn’t usually go up to a person and introduce myself on the spot; I let them come to me. I see myself as a slightly boring because since I wait for people to introduce themselves first I may give them the sign of being a boring person who isn’t fun to talk to. I can be quite hesitant when trying new things, but I usually end up like it so I am quite an accepting person when it comes to change. I’m that type of person who is able to adapt to a situation and still be able to carry on with normal duties because I “go with the flow.”

By identifying our individual personalities, it really gives an insight of what we think of ourselves and how others may perceive us as well. This assignment really showed me how I view myself and with the negatives that I have, I am able to change and become a better person.

queenbellzz:

My point exactly.

I remember my niece sleeping over one night. I was all sad because it was when my boyfriend & I wouldn’t really talk as much as how we do now. Trying to sleep, I just looked at her. Looked at how peaceful she was, just sleeping. Having no care in the world about anything because she’s only 6. I began to think about when she’ll start dating. I never want her heart broken. I’d kill if I ever see her cry because some guy did her wrong. I neve want her to experience any hurt like I’ve felt.

Truly, Madly, Deeply, in love. I’ve never felt this way for a person before.

122/366

Paid my ticket. Dammmn, $147 down the drain </3